Single awareness

Ahh... at the inevitable cycle in my life. The time when the inside hurts for romance and an intimate relationship with someone. Being single for two years I’ve grown and changed in many ways that I wouldn’t have if I were in a relationship, but the the empty void is there nonetheless. I ask God when sometimes... but all I hear is silence. I wonder if I’ll ever be at peace with my inner man. I can’t wait until I am sitting with God reviewing my life and immediately I know why. Why my insides are the way they are. Until then I guess I’ll have to take it a day at a time.

I got my passport today! That excited me greatly. Only 6 more weeks and I am done with my job... that seems a little crazy right now... or I feel slightly crazy right now... or both. It is getting very real, and I am quickly realizing how out of my comfort zone this whole thing is. Just yesterday I was the happiest man moving back into my house and having a dog to cuddle with. 300 days later here I am with nothing but question marks in my future and an odd sense that all of this is something I should get used to.