Internal junk

I feel like I got hit by a freight train. My glands are swollen and my throat is getting soar. Shit. I really didn’t want to get sick right now. Other than this, my day has been a good one. I had coffee with mom this morning, and it was good to talk about the depths beneath the surface... and interior decorating. :) I always realize and vocalize things when we talk deep that I don’t know how to put to words in other scenarios.
I believe accumulating a lot more ‘stuff’ in the external, also is a manifestation of ‘stuff’ we accumulate in the internal. It’s quite profound to me that just like posessions, we accumulate internal and emotional baggage as the years go on. What do we do when we finally get sick of all the junk in boxes we don’t use? We GET RID OF IT. But it’s a whole different deck of cards when it comes to internal baggage. No one gave us a handbook on how to deal with emotional junk we don’t want anymore. Even the bible and religious leaders say ‘lay it at the cross’ or ‘give it to God,’ but what does that mean?? The bible does talk a lot about forgiveness, and I believe that to be a huge part of it, but it’s much more complicated than that. It’s a continual process of wanting to sift through the garbage time and time again, some things taking years to get rid of. Who want’s to do that? Not many, let me tell you. That sound’s to most (myself included) about as fun as pulling out hairs one by one. Then there’s the open wounds inside that are still bleeding and still hurt whenever someone gets close to them. How are we supposed to deal with those? Most professional counselors don’t even know. Theofostic has done a great deal for me, but I’m a pretty simple case considering my fairly ‘normal’ upbringing. How do people with abuse/rape deep scarring even go there? To many of these people what happened to them is completely normal behavior, so they choose to repeat it, and the others are so closed off that even the thought of facing into that darkness makes them want to crawl even more inside their shell. This is becoming the norm as ramifications of the sinful nature that we live in, but the church is doing nothing about it. Counseling in most christian facilities is a joke, and the counselors are held to so much ‘political correctness’ that little effectiveness can actually be done. This annoys me and I wish I had the answer.