Training

I’m actually going to write for my blog today. Actually it’s the first time I’ve written anything in about two weeks... oh well. I have been writing in my book, and I’m glad I at least have a start. Today is the first day of summer missions training, and it has been very hot. I can’t believe in five days I’m heading to Croatia... just the thought feels rather crazy at this point, but I know it will be good. The teaching this morning was on the sower and the seed, and how the little seeds God plants in our lives are sowed into the root system of our relationship with him. Carolyn Ros led it, and I must say that she is a very gifted teacher and brilliant at getting to the heart of people. She also spoke on the weeds and rocks that we constantly have to clear and dig up in order to keep our relationship with God growing, and it got me thinking about how I personally always see the big things, but it’s the little weeds in my life that I pay no attention to that end up becoming the big things. I’m realizing more and more that I’m in a cycle of hitting a big wall, falling on my face, renewing my relationship with God and letting him pick me back up, doing great for awhile, then coasting until I hit another big wall, and the cycle keeps repeating itself. I think this cycle was made real for me today from the realization that I’m in the habit of ignoring the small weeds in my life. I’ve never viewed them as much of an issue, until they turn into the big weeds and then all of the sudden I’m getting choked out and falling to the ground.

It’s an interesting realization, and I’m hoping and praying that God gives me more insight as to what he wants to deal with in me over this next week and during the time in Croatia.

Lord please help me to see what you want me to see. Open my eyes to the small weeds and help me to be able to give them to you. Help me have grace for others around me during this time, and please direct me in my constant struggle with lust and pride. I need your grace today. In your son’s precious name, amen.