GD Haven

This needs to be short, but I figured that I should write something really quick while I’m alone to my thoughts. I’m such a slacker. I should really be reading more, but instead find myself playing with my phone or watching TV. Grandma watches a lot of TV... definitely more than what I’m used to. Oh well, I’m here to be with her, and if that means sitting doing what she prefers, that’s what I’m going to do.
I love her so much. With that said, she is an extremely difficult woman. It amazes me how controlling she is... but it all comes in a sweet and quietly manipulative way. If you dare say no to her, you get the quiet guilt trip. She also never states what she wants, which is extremely trying for me. It’s always “whatever you want sweetheart”. But grandma, what do YOU want? “I don’t want anything”, she says, “I want what you want”. This goes round and round until I feel like my head is going to explode, then we both sit in silence smoking our cigarettes and just letting the time pass. When I AM decisive, she seems silently unhappy before suggesting that I might want to do this or that. I take her suggestions as her actually wanting to do what she suggested, so I ask her if that’s what SHE wants, only to get a shrug of the shoulders and the reply “whatever you want sweetheart”. Oh well... it is what it is I guess. All I can do is love her for the woman that she is, and she is a very loving and generous person.

Last night was the best thunderstorm I have EVER seen. Lightning was non-stop, the thunder shook the house, and it rained 3 1/4 inches in less than a hour. We never get these types of storms back home, and I love them. I just sat on the front porch with a smile on my face while the booming and flashing and sound of rain soaked into my bones.
I need to get going to run some errands... I only have four days before departing to Europe, and I have to make sure everything is in line for my trip :)